I am testing these links……I will not be using the blog to promote my business, regularly.
Just trying to figure out what goes where, how to use it all and how to get there!
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Anyone who knows me, knows I am always up to something. Always trying something new. Desperate to find my fit. Which, drives my husband INSANE.
I have been going through some medical issues, I am sure you will hear all about them. These changes have brought me to try and find a healthier way of life. My Nurse Practitioner actually said these words to me: ” Julie, I don’t want to hurt your feelings, because I really like you, BUT you have to not only lose weight; but retrain your brain to think healthy…..AND you have to exercise” This shit didn’t happen until I hit 45 and quit smoking.
That is no joke. I threaten my body from time to time that I am going to start smoking again. It laughs at me and says ” watch this bitch” and throws a migraine at me. I laugh back tell it ” please that move quit working 5 years ago” , which is mostly true, I have a high tolerance for pain anymore. BUT, I HATE to itch. OMG it will throw me into a panic attack in a nano second. So, guess what the body throws at me…..you guessed it- the itchies!! So, I throw tequila at it. It is truly a love hate relationship.
I have no real idea where to begin or how. I have researched everything to death and back. And my family is NOT down with me removing the Hostess products from our house.
Where are the days when I could remove ONE item from my menu for the week and lose 5 pounds?? This shit is for the birds I tell you. I so much as LOOK at a Hostess product and I gain 5 pounds.
You add into the equation that I am not seriously motivated to make the change and already we have failure. Days like this I want to beat my head against a wall. Or just stay in bed. Which neither are an option!
So, we are off to the races my beautiful friends. Let’s see what and where this adventure takes me!
It’s been a long long while since I’ve taken the time to sit and let the words flow.
I am not even sure I can think of everything that’s gone on in that time period. So, I won’t. I just wanted to take a minute to let ya all know I AM BACK. And I will be sitting down daily to put my words down. This is a new step I am taking for me. I just hope it works.
Tell your friends. Share me daily.
Do you ever feel like your standing on the edge of earth but you can’t decide wether you should spread your wings and fly or just scream? This is how I have felt all summer.
There are days when I swear I can feel something out there trying to pull me in. I have no idea what or maybe who. It’s just this heavy knotted up something sitting just within my chest. Just sitting there heavy as can be and barely tugging. And it’s so exhausting. Trying to figure out what in the hell it means.
Then there are days I could just curl up in a ball and cry. Sleep and cry. All curled up. With my super thick blanket as my armor against whatever hell the world wants to throw at me that day.
Occasionally there are those days that just whirl by like the wind blew me in circles leaving me dazed and confused.
Not all days are bad or sideways. There are days of happiness, joy and laughter ribboned and twisted throughout all the others.
And still I come back to days of standing on the edge of the earth. I find myself more and more asking all the what’s and why’s of life. Sometimes I think I am really in this world all alone, it’s spinning and spinning and everyone else took the leap, and are now soaring to new heights. And here I stand. Trying to make sense of it all. Wandering. Dreaming. Wishing. But never able to fly.
The days only seem to go by faster, never slowing down. Never allowing time to take a breath and re center ones self. Constantly in motion. So I stand and scream. And no one listens.
I’ve been quiet for a while. Had a lot of different things going on. So much I want to tell you. I need to start recording all my thoughts when they come to me, but I hate the sound of my own voice. It’s so winey. But I get all these great ideas and then I forget them.
Anyway, I guess this is sort of a warning. We are leaving for vacation tomorrow, to the beach!!! WooHoo! It’s a short vacation and I’m sure I’m not going to want to leave come early Friday morning, but it’s better then nothing.
So, the warning: I’m hoping to do nothing but sit on the beach and read and write.
Sneak peaks: I’ve started seeing a naturopath, whipping my health into shape. I’ve never flown on an airplane….. until tomorrow, hope I live to write about it. Had some personal things go on, probably won’t bore you with it; family drama and learning not only did I not belong but it’s probably I wasn’t truly welcomed by a few. Still on the search for being able to travel, travel, travel and get paid to do it; which means it will never happen – I have horrible luck.